Ngayon ko lang nalaman na bukas na pala ang alis ko. I'm leaving and it's all good. Hopefully this time, no more turning backs and no more backtracks. I'll be traveling alone which means I have enough time for myself before I mix myself to a new crowd.
I always like starts and beginnings, they give me the strange yet soothing feeling of assurance, or opportunities more likely. Tomorrow is another day, so was yesterday. But tomorrow should at least be different, special. Tomorrow, another chance is waiting for me in a far off place. I'll be leaving my comfort zone and I hope that I'll find where my heart has been all this time.
I have been living my life with one foot out the door. I am always on the verge of leaving. Staying for a long time is difficult for me, much more staying for good. I just don't feel doing routines, being with the same people, and dwelling in places where change is a never heard word.
Tomorrow is a justification of those things.
I can always look back, but never will I come back. That's how firm and definite my decision is, at least for now.
I am not sure if after some time I'll feel this urge again, to leave and turn over an even newer leaf.
Good luck Di! :)
ReplyDeleteLeaving carries a heavy feeling with it. When you said, "I will always look back, but never come back", I can totally relate with the feeling. It is often mixed, filled with uncertainty yet filled with hope. "I don't want to see the same faces", so true. I wanna forget them, but I remember them and their memories are something that I'll take with me, whether consciously and unconsciously. One thing that I will always remember is when you said "...I hope that I'll find where my heart has been all this time". This is one line that I absolutely feel considering the countless times when I felt lost. Sana nga lang mahanap mo, if not in your current destination probably in your next stop, or perhaps in coming home. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Andrew and Darnel. It feels good to know that there are people who can relate to our posts. :) With regard to my destination, it is still uncertain (or am I the one who's uncertain?)at any rate, I'll keep going 'til I find my way! :)
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