Stay

"I want you to stay, never go away from me. Stay forever. Now that you're gone, all I can do is pray for you to be here beside me again."

It's almost two years since you left us and almost two years of pain. Sometimes it's bearable, sometimes it's not. I still wish God didn't take you away from us, from me. Gone too soon.

Today should be your 26th birthday. We will celebrate it as if you are still here just like the old times. I really miss you dude.

Maalala ko lang, ikaw ang rason kung bakit ako sumali sa copingclub. First quarter last year yun. I was trying to cope then. Unfortunately, I'm still coping now. It's really hard to let go of a very good friend. Much as I really want to, I just can't. I can still remember when I arrived at the hospital and I saw you, lifeless. I still cry at night dude. How I wish you appear in my dreams. Kahit dun lang, magpaalam ka ng maayos sakin.

Dae ko maako sa sadiri ko na dae ta ka na mahihiling na mag-ulok. Dae ko maako na dae ko na ika makakaiba sa mga coverage. Dae ko maako na wara ka na, plain and simple.

Aram ko dapat haloy ta ka na pigbuhian. Aram ko habo mo na mahihiling mo akong mamundo, arog kan dati, na mas nadadagit ka sa nagpapakulog kan buot ko. Pero dae ko pa kaya. Yaon man giraray su pagmawot na sana yaon ka pa. Na siring pa man giraray ako kan dati kun yaon ka pa.

Kuya, nag-iba ako simula nang mawala ka. Pinilit kong maging strong kasi alam kong yun ang gusto mo. Pero dahil dun, may mga nagbago sa ugali ko. Hindi kita sinisisi. Sarili ko lang ang dapat sisihin sa kung naging ano ako ngayon.

I failed you this time. But I'll try to bring back the old me.

Sa copers, mawawala muna ako sandali. Hahanapin ko muna sarili ko. Sana pagbalik ko, buo na ako uli. Maraming salamat.


October 27, 2012, 11:52am