Depths

So this is the depths of pain. It is seething hard but it teaches you life's biggest ironies and mysteries.

My deep pain comes from my discovery of the unthinkable traits of man in a dog-eat-dog world--how friends could suddenly turn into savage beasts that devour you and how they could play sheep to save their faces. In reality, life's discrepancies can be utterly frustrating. Life is just unfair.

But at the point of breaking down, you would learn to value whatever is left of you, if it's dignity, be it dignity. If it's just a bit of your pride or just your self, you would learn to safekeep, to protect, to defend. You would learn to pat your own back in the midst of torment. You would love yourself above anyone else, for in times of suffering, self-preservation is knee-jerk.