random realizations

And when I heard you say you wish you didn't attend Lhet's debut party,
I realized how deep and how much I've hurt you to the core.

Deep enough to want me uprooted, deleted from your memory.
Enough for you to wish you never ever met and laid your eyes on me.
For you to regret everything.

That's when it hurt the most.
Because I proved you did love me that much.
But at the same time, it hit me that I can never ever have you again.
And I knew, yes, I knew deep down, I should let you go.

Four thousand

4,000 views na! Tayo-tayo lang ba 'yon? Hahaha.

Tuklaw

Gusto kong kumuha ng pet snake. Curious ako sa behaviors and mechanisms ng mga ahas.

I remember writing this draft in a hotel lobby but I never got to click on the publish button.

Trials. Heartaches. Failures. Rejection. These are all launchpads to success. They give us the drive to rise up, to seize every chance to win. They push us out of our comfort zones. They teach us to defend ourselves until we are invincible.

Body piercing

Hindi naman pala masakit. Dahil may mga bagay na sadyang mas masakit pa sa body piercing.

Depths

So this is the depths of pain. It is seething hard but it teaches you life's biggest ironies and mysteries.

My deep pain comes from my discovery of the unthinkable traits of man in a dog-eat-dog world--how friends could suddenly turn into savage beasts that devour you and how they could play sheep to save their faces. In reality, life's discrepancies can be utterly frustrating. Life is just unfair.

But at the point of breaking down, you would learn to value whatever is left of you, if it's dignity, be it dignity. If it's just a bit of your pride or just your self, you would learn to safekeep, to protect, to defend. You would learn to pat your own back in the midst of torment. You would love yourself above anyone else, for in times of suffering, self-preservation is knee-jerk.

Havey daw ito sabi ng kaibigan ko

"Ako, manunulat. Siya, manunulot."

Un.

Personified

I am not sarcastic. I am sarcasm.

Mondays

Life will just really be a matter of seasons. One day you wake up and everything seems to perfectly fit. And there is just something magical about Mondays, it's like everyone is trying to have a new life. But Tuesday is another day. And so on.

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Wag mong hahayaang masanay sa isang bagay, o isang taong bukas makalawa, pag tingin mo e wala na pala. kelangan mong alalahaning may mga taong ano mang oras ay kaya kang bitiwan-- handa ka man o hindi. may sasalo man sayo o wala.

Saya, saya

'Wag ka nang malungkot, kasi wala naman silang paki. Lugi ka.