help!!!

The pain is excruciating. I should have never allowed myself to fall in love with you. So now I'm hurt and helpless. Hindi na ako natuto diba? My fault again :'( Nahulog na naman ako sa patibong. Nalulunod na naman ako. Di ko alam kung makakaligtas pa ba ako o hahayaan ko nalang to. Buti sana kung beer to. At least alam ko pag sa beer makakasurvive pa ako. Sana beer ka na lang! Sino ang gustong uminom?? Tara lets!

What was I thinking?

The ex messaged me on Facebook about professional matters since we are affiliated to the same organization. Due to a sudden surge of emotions, I sent her a "friend request." Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Arrrgh!

After banging my head on the wall rethinking, I canceled the friend request before she accepts it. Why did I even think she would accept it? I quickly thought, I wouldn't want to read what's on her wall every now and then. Nor someday check out her changed relationship status when she and my "friend" finally announce their affair.

For now it's good. We're neither enemies nor friends.