Mr. Engineer

CONGRATULATIONS!

Engineer ka na!
I can almost hear you say "Sa wakas!"
Yun naman ang alam kong sasabihin mo.
Medyo may delay, you almost gave up and almost decided to shift course, but look at you now! (I know I wish I could...) Mr. Engineer!
I remember nung yan pa ang code name ko para sa'yo.

I can almost feel how happy you are.
I can almost see that dimple of yours ngayong ngingiti ka paggising mo with the thought that after everything, you made it.

Sobrang saya ko para sa'yo...sa tagumpay mo.
I always waited for this day to come to you. 
I only wish I was there for you with that struggle of yours...and celebrate with you now that the fruits of your label has come.
But someone's in that place now. 

Kahit batiin ka nga lang, hindi ko magagawa.

At least, it happened on the 24th and 25th of November. Those fateful days. 
Everything about that night when you whispered in my ear that you love me exactly three years ago from these dates, are forever kept safe in my memory.
I know, I was with you during these days of your exam, as I lay nostalgic about what could have beens and where we might be if i didn't do "it".
I hope with all of me that at least, somehow, I crossed your mind.
Who knows, maybe these are your lucky days.

You once told me, pangarap mong makasama sa Top 10 ng Civil Engg Boards.
I remembered laughing a little about it kasi akala ko nagjo-joke ka lang but you were serious about it.
You weren't the studious type naman kasi. Dati nga laging okay lang sa'yo basta makapasa.

Hindi mo man nakamit yun, I'm sure sulit lahat ng efforts mo.
And I'll always be so, so very much proud of you.

You've come a long way...long way away from me, from us.
And I'm not sure I can say exactly the same for me.
Some strings of my heart are still attached to yours or to that part of your past where you allowed me in your life, contrary to the now.
But truly, sincerely and from the bottom of this abyss where my heart used to be before it was dragged away by you when you left, I am happy for you. 

It may not be for everything, especially that you're with probably the best girlfriend you've ever had, but I am happy for you...for what you are now.
For what you've become despite what I did to you.
As ever, you are a wonderful person and it will always come out of you.
And as always, and forever, I love you.