random realizations

And when I heard you say you wish you didn't attend Lhet's debut party,
I realized how deep and how much I've hurt you to the core.

Deep enough to want me uprooted, deleted from your memory.
Enough for you to wish you never ever met and laid your eyes on me.
For you to regret everything.

That's when it hurt the most.
Because I proved you did love me that much.
But at the same time, it hit me that I can never ever have you again.
And I knew, yes, I knew deep down, I should let you go.