It's over.

Let the words fall out

I wanna see ME be BRAVE...

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out honestly
I wanna see you be brave!

On a Sunday-ish Monday morning

Because Michael Learns to Rocks is still epic.

B,

Don't ever think that you don't matter to me by now just because I am with someone else. In my heart, there has been a place for you... and there will always be a piece of me longing for every bit of you. I know that I am happier when I'm with you but I have to let go of all the emotional baggage to make things less complicated. Or to make myself feel more miserable?

Hey There, Zup?? ^_^

              Its been what, almost 3 years since that moment, sa isang simpleng laruan na may komplikadong paraan ng pagbuo, unang challenge na ginawa natin. Yun ang unang beses na nagkausap tayo, yun nga ata hehehe. Di mo siya mabuo, limot na kasi ang paraan kung pano pagssamahin ang kulay. Gang sa iniwan mo na lang siya, kasi di mo talaga mabuo. Kinabukasan, di prepared, wala ka ngang kodigo na dala eh, hehe. Pero bigo pa din mabuo. Tinulungan kita, kulet nung moment na yun :). At sa simpleng cinco, napa isip kita. You want more, so nang hingi ako ng powder, at lalo kang napa isip sa sunod kong ginawa. Sa totoo lang, ang habang kwentuhan at kukulangin ang isang araw kung isusulat ko lahat. Meron lang akong gusto malaman. Kamusta na ba :) Wag ka magtaka, namimiss kita :) I hope we can chat one of this days :) Well, this is the only way na naisip ko to reach you. As always, keep smiling :)




P.S.
Sensya na sa way ko, just saying what i feel :)

Where I am now.

Yesterday marked the second year since you left me. For good. With dreadful finality. The pain i feel now is as great as it was back then, there on that bench at the Lover's Lane.

Two years, 24 months, 731 days, 17,544 hours, 1,052,640 minutes, 63,158,400 seconds and counting since the last time i saw your face, held your hands, kissed your lips. since the last time i've seen you cry for me and the moment you said goodbye. Does that make the pain any bearable? No. On the contrary..

I have moved on in many ways, but maybe i can never move on from the fact that i lost you for me. The fact that i know i was never truly forgiven.

Looking back, there are many things i've learned, many i've realized but still refuse to accept. It was still all me isn't it? Losing you was still all my goddamn fault.

It was always okay for men to cheat, but women, no.